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Friday, October 11, 2019

Letting Go Is Not ‘Forever Gone’

 OCTOBER 11, 2019  BY DR. C 


“Letting go” is a constant theme with Parkinson’s disease. What used to be easy is now challenging. Gone are my days of hiking for miles or spending hours in the gardens digging, hauling, lifting. Those times when 24 hours of project immersion got me through complex problem-solving and four college diplomas are over. I can’t do it the same way anymore. Giving up these expectations of myself has not been easy, and the process of letting go always presents itself at sanctuary’s door. It is never entirely gone.
Psychology Today columnist Judith Sills, PhD, explains that we tend to get stuck in our past, but by letting go we can move forward. “It’s an axiom of psychology that we are some recombination of all of our yesterdays. To move forward wisely, we are therefore often urged to look back. But there’s a point where appreciation and analysis of the past become gum on your psychological shoe. It sticks you in place, impedes forward motion, and, like gum, it doesn’t just disappear on its own. You need to do some scraping.”
American poet and philosopher Ralph Waldo Emerson said, “A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds.” When you can’t let go, you are haunted by the hobgoblin. If you let go and have nothing to replace it, the hobgoblin will rush to fill the void. Sanctuary holds safety and sacredness in place of the void allowing the possibility of well-being to unfold.
Letting go is learning to live with the bad things that happen — not by eradicating memory, but by shifting attention and perception. In my quest to let go and accommodate chronic Parkinson’s symptoms, I turn to sanctuary. I know when I am using sanctuary appropriately because I run smack into resistance. It is extremely hard to let go of old habits, old scars, and old voices playing on old tapes. The path of letting go is full of detours and wrong turns. I’m always learning more about how to let go. It is a process, and it’s never done.
Writing on Psych Central, John M. Grohol identifies some key steps in the “letting go” process:
  1. Decide to let it go.
  2. Express your pain — and your responsibility.
  3. Stop being the victim and blaming others.
  4. Focus on the present — the here and now — and joy.
  5. Forgive others and yourself.
Throughout our lives, much of our self-identity is defined by what we do rather than who we are. Strip away the things that we could do, and we feel naked without the career clothes we used to wear. Social conversation often turns to, “What do you do for a living?” I want to reply, “I’m just trying to survive.” People who still see me as the person I was can’t see my struggle with letting go that drains my energy and creates overwhelming fatigue.
Family, friends, and some medical providers often do not fully understand how letting go carves away the substance of identity, whittling it down to a splinter. The following quote sums it up for me: “Those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” It results in more loss thrown on a plate already overflowing with dead bones.
Letting go occurs for me on many levels, affecting my sensations, emotions, thoughts, and pain. Sanctuary is not merely a place to “feel good.” It gives me the strength and calmness to face my demons, mourn losses, move forward into the future, and find peace with myself and those around me. Letting go is not losing entire memories even when they’re interwoven with the hard times. Letting go is not forever gone. It remains at sanctuary’s door opening the possibility of well-being.

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