Terri Reinhart is a retired kindergarten teacher and current freelance artist and writer. She started writing after being diagnosed with Parkinson's in 2007 because, as she says, "It helps me to process all the crazy wonderful things in life without screaming or hitting anything." Her husband, Chris, is very patient.
According to the “Classical Parkinson's Disease Timeline: Onset to Death” chart I found on the website of the Rocky Mountain Movement Disorder Center, I'm in trouble. My clinical symptoms showed up 13 years ago, which means I am somewhere in between Hoehn & Yahr stage III (Poor Balance) and H & Y stage IV (Fall, Dependency, Cognitive Decline). The fact that I fell on Christmas Eve while getting ready for family to come doesn't help.
While I understand this chart shows a common pattern of PD and is not meant to strictly show what an individual will go through, I also understand how easy it is to bypass the writing underneath the chart and just see the chart... like I did... and have a knee-jerk (or dystonia jerk) reaction. (I eventually skimmed the content below.)
When all is said, researched, and done, we still have to admit how much we don't know. My PD will do what it will do. I know if I exercise my body and my brain, eat right, and do my best to stay connected with my friends, family, and the community at large, I will do better than if I watch TV all day, eat junk food, and never see anyone. I also know this has less to do with PD than with LIFE in general. Duh.
Having said all this, I know I've gone through a lot of stages since my diagnosis. So many that I have come up with my own rating scale. I call it the Reinhart New Rating Scale for Parkinson's Disease. I'm sure others will find it extremely valuable.
Here it is:
STAGE 1: PARKINSON'S? ME?
This stage usually starts when you are diagnosed. It is generally accompanied by either screaming, swearing, or a blank stare.
STAGE 2: NO, THANK YOU.
This isn't just denial, it's when you tell your doctor you're returning his/her diagnosis and you want your money back or possibly, “I'd like to trade it in for a bout of stomach flu and hemorrhoids.”
STAGE 3: I'M GOING TO DO THIS RIGHT.
For some people, this means fighting it. They express this stage with: “I have PD, but PD doesn't have me.” Others (like me) decide to embrace their situation and become as positive as possible. This could be expressed as “I'm not going to fight this, I'm going to learn to live well with PD” meaning, “I'm going to learn how to slow down and eat well and exercise and keep active in the community and do everything I want to do which means I'm really in denial about having anything wrong with me in the first place.”
STAGE 4: PAC-MAN POWER PELLETS
Otherwise known as Sinemet or Carbidopa-Levodopa. All of a sudden things are good. Wow. Life is almost back to normal... sort of. If I have more symptoms, the doc gives me more power pellets. Mmm, dopamine rush. It's much easier now to be positive about life, the universe, and everything.
STAGE 5: CRASH AND BURN
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