My knees are shaking and it’s not from nervousness. This is Parkinson’s disease.
Stiff muscles abound throughout my aching body. This is Parkinson’s disease.
My lips quiver, my teeth click, smiles turn into frowns. This is Parkinson’s disease.
My toes and fingers bend involuntarily because … this is Parkinson’s disease.
My legs, my arms, my sides, my back, my stomach, they can all seize up in great twisting pain for … this is Parkinson’s disease.
My voice can falter and fade, and I shout when they yell at me to “speak up” because … this is Parkinson’s disease.
I choke on my food and swallowing is becoming harder. This is Parkinson’s disease.
I can trip, I can fall, I walk like a shuffling penguin. This is Parkinson’s disease.
Writing has become difficult and frustrating. What once was legible is now a Parkinson’s “scratch.”
The “Little Monster” is to blame for most of what is wrong with me because “Little Monster” is Parkinson’s disease, and Parkinson’s disease is “Little Monster.”
The good and the bad and the happy and the sad are both a blessing and a curse because … this is Parkinson’s disease.
On one side I am almost free, and on the other, I am bound in chains because … this is Parkinson’s disease.
Confusion and some irritability can be blamed on Parkinson’s. And why not? If I must bear this crazy disease, then I ask you … why not?
Why not blame it for being snappy and silly, for running into walls and tripping over chairs, and all things else like that?
Why not blame it for everything in life gone wrong? Seems fair. It took from my life what wasn’t its to take, and it just keeps taking and taking.
Am I angry? No. I hold no grudges about that which I cannot see, and though I can see God in this world around me, I do not blame Him. I do not see Him in this hideous disease, but I see Him more clearly because of it.
I see Him because by His comfort and His care and the way He loves me through this … this Parkinson’s disease. With His strong arms and His great, matchless mercy and relentless grace.
He is in the all — His faithfulness is trustworthy. It may be because of Parkinson’s that I may suffer, but it is with hope that I endure.
And it’s because of God I live joy unspeakable — in spite of this “Little Monster” I call … Parkinson’s disease.
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